It has been very therapeutic for me to write and publish what I went through in this life storm. But the ultimate healer is God. He has brought me through so many things it is amazing.

He sent people to shelter me. He sent people to feed me. He sent people to clothe me. He sent people to minister to me. He sent people to help heal me. He sent people to pray for me. He sent people to help me financially. He sent people to help rebuild my life from nothing. He sent people to share their own very personal and painful experiences with divorce. He reconnected me with long lost friends. He brought family members closer to me.

He is great and worthy of praise.

I feel God has me in the express lane getting me through this.

While in church the Sunday before Thanksgiving while listening to a sermon on, of course, being thankful I had a heart to heart with God. “Father, I’m sorry but I don’t feel very thankful right now. I am dreading Thanksgiving and Christmas.” Very quickly He replied loud and clear, “Would you rather have a little over a month to dread these or would you rather this happened at the first of the year so you would have many months to dread it?” Great point LORD. I’m on board. Thank you.

His single and very strong message to me through this has been, “I have a plan for you. A great plan. Wait. It is beyond your wildest imagination. You will see.”

So, I wait. I watch. I listen.

I have flat worn the book of Psalms out in this mess. How some of the passages speak to me. Here are some of my favorites…

In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search and be silent. Offer right sacrifices to the LORD. PS 4:4

I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone O LORD make me dwell in safety. PS 4:8

Blessed are they whose ways are blameless, who walk accordingly to the law of the LORD. PS 119:1

It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees. PS 119:71

How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth. PS 119:103

May my cry come before you, O LORD; give me understanding according to your word. PS 119:169

Here is the huge one, “He reached down from on high and took hold of me; He drew me from the deep waters. PS 18:16

This, He has done.

The greatest revelation I have had in my healing is I didn’t lose everything. She did. Based upon how I was treated it makes me seriously wonder if I was ever loved in seventeen years of marriage. Which is painful, but in a way comforting. I won’t have any guilt when the LORD, if it is His will and in His time, brings to me the one He took from my rib.

Cecil version 2.0 is walking and talking. In His name.

This is the final post in the Falling Out Of Life series.

I’m done with falling.

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